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Model: My sister :)
Every single time i watch this movie Im moved to tears. Its amazing how empowering it is when you retreat and look at how women allow men to treat them. Beautiful strong women let weak insecure and selfish men walk all over them. Every time i see this movie i tell myself, no more, no more will i be taken for granted, abused or hurt...but its easier said then done. A woman is by nature a loving and forgiving creature. However I have made a promise to love myself selfishly remind myself not to get lost in any man coz no man can handle what it means to be loved by me.
JUANITA: "Ever since I realized there was
someone called a colored girl, an evil woman, a bitch or a nag. I been trying not to be that and leave bitterness in somebody else’s cup. Come to somebody to love me without deep and nasty smelling scars from lye or being left screaming in a street fulla lunatics, whispering slut, bitch, bitch. Niggah get outta here with alla that. I didn’t have any of that for you. I brought you what joy I found. And I found joy. And then there’s that woman who hurt you, who you left, three or four times."
JUANITA (CONT'D): "And you just went back after you
put my heart in the bottom of your shoe. You just walked back to where you hurt. And I didn’t have nothing. So I went to where somebody had something for me. But none of them were you. I was on the way back from her house. In the bottom of your shoe. A real dead loving is here for you now. Cause I don’t know anymore, how to avoid my own face wet with my tears cause I had convinced myself Colored Girls had no right to sorrow. I lived for you, but I know I did it for myself. I couldn’t stand it I couldn’t stand being sorry and colored at the same time. It’s so redundant in the modern world. You gotta go."
FRANK: "I guess this is good bye?"
JUANITA: "Like you’ve never seen it before."
The piece below done by Janet Jackson in the movie is just amazing....i read it over and over, its almost a etched in my memory!
JOANNA: "Save your sorry. One thing I
don't need is any more apologies. I got sorry greeting me at my front door. You can keep yours. I don’t know what to do with them. I'm gonna have to throw some away I can’t get to the clothes in my closet for all the sorries. I'm gonna tack a sign on my door, leave a message by the phone. If you called to say you’re sorry, call somebody else. I don't use ‘em anymore. I let sorry, didn’t mean to, and how could I know about that take a walk down a dark and musty street in Brooklyn.
JOANNA (CONT'D): "I'm gonna do exactly what I want to and I won’t be sorry for none
of it. Let a sorry soothe your soul. I'm gonna soothe mine. You were always inconsistent doing something and then being sorry. Beating my heart to death talking bout you sorry. Well I will not call, I'm not going to be nice. I will raise my voice, scream and holler, break things and race the engine and tell all your secrets bout yourself to your face. I won’t be sorry for none of it. I loved you on purpose I was open on purpose. I still crave vulnerability and loose talk. I'm not even sorry bout you being sorry. You can carry all the guilt and grime ya wanna just don't give it to me. I can’t use another sorry. Next time you should admit you’re mean, down low and low down, trifling. And no count straight out. Instead of being sorry all the time, enjoy being yourself. When I get back I want you gone and take your HIV with you."
